October 27th 2009

It was a little late in the evening and Neal and I had been out shopping. We had gone to the dollar store to get a few odds and ends and I saw them. They were only a dollar and who could it hurt? I looked at Neal and he proceeded to put two in our basket. Yes we had been actively trying to have a baby but no we didn't really think it would happen despite the Dr.'s visits, medications, miles driven and prayers said. I mean it was obvious we could get pregnant but so much had happened and our fears were getting in the way of our excitement. So I didn't give it that much more thought and we went on our way.
Several hours later I looked at the box sitting on my bathroom counter and thought to myself, "why even waste the time" but the other part of me thought it was only a dollar and better to know now than later because if I was I would need to start taking blood thinners right away. So I took it, and I didn't even have to wait. There was obviously two lines but one was very faint. I thought because it was a cheap test it probably wasn't right. So I took another one a couple of hours later...same thing..OMG! I didn't really say much to Neal. We had been over this and each time was more heartbreaking than the last so no rush to get his emotions going. I lied and said I forgot something at Target and so I rushed over to the aisle that sold them and purchased one and only one. I wasn't going to rely on two lines I wanted a definite answer. Here is what I got!!!!



I could not believe my eyes. Instantly I knew that this time was different. It was finally going to happen. I told Neal and he was of course cautiously optimistic. Funny how he looked forward to stabbing me with injections twice a day but I think deep down he feared losing another baby because he saw what it did to me and how hard it was on "us". However, it was so neat to keep this miracle between the two of us and look at each other from across a full room of people and smile because we were keeping the most precious secret of all....we were making a baby!!!!

Funny how a year can change everything. I am so very blessed and we have such a beautiful baby girl. What will the next year bring??? Maybe another little miracle...I sure hope so!