CANCELLED!!!

Okay so I am not sure how many of you are aware of the process of what Neal and I have been doing this last month....Well I do know. None of you know. We have been taking some meds to help speed us this process. ( You know the process of having our little miracle). Well, this week I have had two ovarian scans. First day I rocked it!!!! We got amazing results and I went back today for another scan and this is what I got from the Nurse Practitioner."Yes it looks like you have three follicles oh wait okay four, five six....Oh my well three measure rather large...oh wait let me move to the back...OH NO!!! Six measure off the charts. Please forgive me for a moment I need to talk to the Dr.. (me.."Oh Okay...twiddle my thumbs thinking what in the Sam Hell is going on????) Nurse comes back in..."Okay this cycle is a no go ("What why?") well you have six mature follicles and doctor doesn't want to risk the probability that you will end up pregnant with SIX BABIES....("Right I agree....but what wait I can have babies...six...I don't want six...Twins maybe triplets...but I don't want to give up either and just say no go, what if next month isn't as responsive as this month???? I went through all of this to be told NO!!!! Me slowly getting upset looking up to God like, "when will I have my day when all the stars line up with the correct planets and we can finally sing praise that today is our day in fact the next nine months will be filled of our days???? Apparently not this month potentially next month...I digress)

"So, I ask the nurse what does this mean?" It means that you responded so well to the meds it is off the charts. Plus with your crappy diagnosis of all of your wonderful blood clotting disorders Dr. says that this is just too risky. I bravely ask, "NOW WHAT?" You guessed it we have to wait a whole month again and try again with less of a dosage of the meds and more Dr.'s appointments and crossed fingers....If that still doesn't work we will have to put you on another most likely more expensive medication to slow things down for your kick but ovaries and follicles. GOSH!!!!!

Then I call Neal to tell him our wonderful...ok irritating but still good to hear...blessing to hear news..This is how it goes...


Me...Babe I have news...I am so irritated

Neal..."What...It didn't work???

Me..."Oh no it worked...it worked to damn good....so good it is like my ovaries are cracked out with good...we have super follicles and amazing ovaries but the show cannot go on..???

Neal..."Wait why??? This is good right this is what we wanted to hear?"

Me..."Well if you wanted sextuplets then yes this would be good...well if you wanted to raise sextuplets on your own then yes it would be good?"

Neal..."Oh...yeah no not good...but we could be on Oprah...Just kidding"

Me..."This is not funny babe I can't stand this waiting"

Neal..."It is all going to be worth it one day. God knows what he is doing and he has the timing all figured out and it will be perfect...Have Patience"

Me..." I like patience..I'm through with patience..."


No one ever said fertility was easy but I guess through the last three in a half years of trying and losing two precious babies I never thought I would be told I have kick but ovaries and follicles :) Go me I guess???

So on to next month...Oh yeah and Dr. even advised that Neal sleep elsewhere for the next couple days...Just to be sure :)

I pray for PATIENCE!!!!!