Family

Family can offer us a safe place to land, acceptance, love, support and companionship. The flip side to that is family can drive you to drink, cause you to act in ways you would never dream of and they can cause you to call South West Airlines to book a flight to somewhere far far away...far enough away that family could never get to you. All in all family is the best thing that ever happened to me. I love my family to pieces and know that God was doing exactly the right thing when he gave them to me. I love my inlaws and am so very grateful to have found a best friend in my sister in law and a supporting father in law and loving grandparent in laws as well. However to mesh two families at once can be complicated and sometimes down right exhausting. The past couple of weekends have promised to be a very challenging in relation to all things family. However, in time we must know that everything will work itself out and that not all parties are going to walk away happy. I have always been a true believer that time heals everything and in this situation I hope that it does with a few exceptions that I will keep to myself for the time being.

We are blessed to have the family we have and we look forward to creating our own family and merging together as one. We have a few more days of waiting before we find out what the next chapter in our life holds. We want more than anything to hold our newborn in our hands and to know that the struggles are finally behind us as far as trying to conceive goes. We will be blessed one day and remain faithful to God to provide.

This weekend started off with a bang and a simple breakfast with my family and then a long and very hot company picnic for the place that I work. A few things you should know about me is that I strongly dislike heat I would even go so far as to say I HATE the heat. Also I am not much of a park, outdoorsy kind of girl so the thought of spending an entire day at a park in the heat was enough to send me into a downward spiral. The heat alone transforms me to a person I barely recognize and it just makes me yearn for the day that Neal and I pack up our household and move to our designated destination (BTW that place is still to be determined).

Today was a rather mello day spent at home watching movies and football and spending time with my Brother in Law from up North. I love his visits and his energy he brings to our home and miss him like crazy already. However, this visit he chose to bring his dog which normally would not warrant any concern until I woke up this morning and went to go feed my dogs to see their beds shredded and placed throughout our yard. One big Staffordshire Terrier and two Boston Terries isn't exactly doggie heaven to say the least so we said our goodbyes and sent Loki packing with his dad and could you believe he didn't want to leave but our dogs had a look of relief that said thanks Mom and Dad and BTW he won't be coming back right? I leave on this note because sometimes people will mesh and sometimes they won't, a lot like our dogs and sometimes people need to know when to walk away and cool off. Like dogs you can't make them get along they have to want to and if that desire to get a long does not exist you need to know when to walk away...